Monday, July 5, 2021

i used to be on reality television


i used to be on reality tv & its just so weird when i think about it. i never tell people & i never talk about it. when i came to hollywood, i wanted to be a SERIOUS actress ala marilyn monroe & i went to acting classes & everything. i turned up my nose at even doing tv shows until my savings ran out :-).  its so funny to me how "rock of love" is considered vintage or classic & young girls are dressing like us(please dont lol). reality television is part of the problem & i'm sort of bummed that i added on to that. to clarify, not bummed at who i am but bummed how they chose to edit me & manipulate the situation.

Saturday, May 29, 2021


so i didnt rewatch the original 101 dalmations. from what i remember as a child,i hated it & thought it was boring/stupid & cruella was the best thing in it(same goes for the remake with glenn close. they shouldve made an all cruella movie starring her).

i LOVE emma stone so this had better be good. all the dogs are bad cgi & it looks so cheap :-(. i wish i had a 1 eyed dog named wink. i'm confused how 3 children were squatting in an abandoned building for a decade & nobody noticed. its cool how the store has a biba vibe to it. i'm SLIGHTLY disappointed most of the costumes arent historically accurate but it isnt bothering me as much as it should. 30 minutes in & this is pretty bland so........

emma thompson coming through with the bad betch african auntie headwrap & i'm here for it! i kind of feel like she may have been underrated due to being with kenneth branagh but that is a convo for a different time. its WEIRD this is supposed to be so progressive(OMG THEY CAST NEGROES!!??!!) but emma thompson is basically cosplaying african women. again, that is a convo for a different time. i have to finish this movie before the champagne kicks in. i see white people posting salty comments about how anita darling is a black woman with an afro. its sad how predictable & racist you people are for no reason..........

im confused why disney insists on making the villains the most interesting characters in their movies(cruella is the victim here). if you dont want me to root for the villain then dont make the lead boring/dumb.

it took me WAY TOO LONG to figure out who tf nandor was. 1 hour in & this isnt fun or funny. idc. idc if she was an orphan. idc about the baroness. idc about any of this. i have to admit the cruella "revenge" events gowns are fun but there is not enough of that.

seeing mark strong with hair is bizarre. did they cgi that as well????? im going to need some answers! lmfao.

every once & a while i think about the death of empress elisabeth & this movie doesnt help. i'm mad that wink the dog was literally the best part of this movie

Friday, May 21, 2021

blind item: the "model" & the fashion designer


so this "model" is more known for the rappers she has sex with & the female fashion designer was VERY popular at studio 54. the fashion designer married a gay guy but it turns out it was a lavender marriage both ways. she would fly out the self proclaimed thot for bdsm parties & basically made the "model" into her kinky sex slave. 

Saturday, May 15, 2021



“If you are silent about your pain, they’ll kill you and say you enjoyed it.” Zora Neale Hurston

a "well meaning" white woman told me i should stop talking about racism today because i might start to lose money. lmfao! as if me being born a black woman didnt make me lose money/opportunities my entire life. it's 2021 & white people STILL DONT GET IT. you can afford to sit back with your head in the sand pretending like everything is ok. absolutely nothing going on is affecting you negatively.

your life is not my life. i literally cannot even walk to the store without others trying to hate crime me yet i'm supposed to be silent of all these things done against me.

instead of using her privilege to be an ally, she basically told me to sit down & smile. i am not a coward, i have NEVER been a coward. my ancestors didnt have a voice so i have to speak for them. if that offends you then that will continue to be your problem..........

Wednesday, April 28, 2021

the handmaid's tale

 "the handmaid's tale" is just white women cosplaying what my ancestors went through. that's the post

Friday, April 16, 2021

elvis 2005 review

 i loves me some elvis & (young) jonathan rhys meyers but idk about this. instead of casting someone who sounds like elvis, they just play his original recordings & its weird as hell. this was a tv movie but they shouldve at least tried. 

jrm playing shy is awkward as hell though he was born to play a rockstar. all of this should be exciting but its just boring & idgaf. the costumes are cheap & he has late 1990s hair. his fake sideburns look like they are about to fall off if he moves his head too quickly. randy quaid is so underrated. the girl cast as priscilla is youngish but isnt as young looking as a 14 year old priscilla presley. they shouldve cast an actual child because that is what she was. i'm guessing rose mcgowan is going to be ann margret? i hope not. rose will look insane with anything but black hair.

its weird how the girl playing priscilla looks like a less attractive version of lindsay lohan when lohan wouldve been almost perfect for her role (or ann margret). this isnt worth wasting almost 3 hours for.

Wednesday, March 31, 2021

wes craven's dracula 2000 movie review

 ive seen damn near every english language dracula film/tv show & 700 years later, coppolas continues to be the best.i dont have high hopes for dracula 2000 because gerard butler was only good looking for a second when he was young. a perfect vampire has to be super sexy or super scary & gerard doesnt have the looks/talent to be either. 

who lied & said jennifer esposito was appealing or attractive? danny masterson was always annoying at best so its nice to see him get killed. justine waddell in modern clothes is so weird to me.i wonder why she wasnt a huge star. 

they gave gerard hair like a 1980s housewife. is this supposed to be sexy? i keep waiting for him to sing "with arms wide open".  the only thing scaring me is his hair tbh. i have no idea what is going on with this plot & thats probably for the best. its doing too much yet not enough. this movie is so dumb but trying to be art & failing so bad.

i feel like this movie will be better in 40 years once the clothes are really out of style & the slang is forgotten/hilarious. i wonder how much virgin paid to be in this. damn near every scene is at or about the virgin megastore, its like a 2 hour commercial. the creepy new orleans setting plus y2k aesthetic & heavy metal soundtrack is great, it just doesnt work because the lead actors are so miscast. 

Friday, March 5, 2021

coming 2 america 2021 movie review

i think people forget that coming 2 america is supposed to be a fairytale. all of this is just fantasy, there is no zamunda, its just a silly comedy. i'm slightly scared to watch this(as excited as i am). if this movie is lame, i will be VERY upset.

its crazy that 800 years later, vanessa bell calloway is still the prettiest actress in the movie. i dont like the way she keeps getting treated, though. where's maxine? where's spinderella? not even 20 minutes in & this disrespect of black women is making me feel some sort of way.

i feel like these younger actors are just there to be there. they arent adding anything to the plot. jermaine fowler is annoying & has no charm, they shouldve made his part smaller & wesley snipes role bigger. i love how the daughters come in kicking azz. it needs more of them & less this useless, boring son. it wasnt funny enough & too many flashbacks to the 1st movie.

Friday, February 19, 2021

bromans part deux


so i never actually finished watching bromans. there was a part that was so cringeworthy that i couldnt(the same thing thats been happening with borat 2.ive been trying to watch that since it came out). 

since plebs wont be on anytime soon, i already finished rome , & i, claudius was too boring, i guess i will be forced to watch the rest of this. i die a little inside anytime they say "massive unit". doctore is "well fit" as they say. too bad he's a misogynist. the polyester weaves are making me sad again. all the womens hair looks so dry & matted. did they not allow them to bring conditioner? 

everybody is angry at medina because she refuses to lie & say its ok her boyfriend lost due to his stupidity. this is making me want to turn it off. fragile masculinity strikes again & of course, its all her fault he is a moron.

i'm mad the 33 year old woman looks younger than "teenage" summer. why am i so attracted to tom? lusting after him makes me feel like a lesbian. the fake lipped slag says dinos azz is big & hairy. i dont know what to do with this information. without photographic proof, how will i know if she is lying?

i dont like that they are bringing in new couples every episode when sophii(??wtf??) from the 1st episode was so great (& banished). just bring back sophii & let her talk shit for the next 6 episodes. pretty glenn talking to that other dude about his big d!ck is making me feel some sort of way. again, i'm going to need some proof here.

its nice to see the girls hanging out & bonding before they have to compete with each other though i dont like the fake friendliness. not to be a reality show cliche but they really arent there to make friends so no need to hug & cry like that. i like ellie, shes so spicy.

its incredible they waited until the season was almost over before getting a couple that wasnt completely boring. FINALLY tom spreads those phat cheeks in the shower. now i can die? whoever wrote the outline/script is a moron. who gaf about the challenges & fights? just have the bromans shower with each other for the entire show. no need to get fancy with all the rest of that nonsense.

the neanderthal genes really popped out when they decided it would be fun to splash each other with urine. i cannot with them plucking hairs with tweezers out of that boys anus then rubbing his crack with butter. all the interesting parts are 2 minutes long but the editors let the boring stuff go on forever. its weird. its like they dont want people to watch(or have a 2nd season). its no fun seeing non professionals fail at sport competitions. its like when the real world decided to force everyone to get jobs instead of just hanging out at the house & causing drama. it was so boring i havent watched it since. all you need to do is get them in a room, get them some alcohol, & turn the camera on. all this other stuff is so unnecessary. 

i find it hilarious they basically banished homeboy because he had red hair & pale skin. i'd rather see the girls doing these competitions than the men, they are much more entertaining. its VERY rude they only gave them string bikinis to fight in & not actual shirts or underwired bra tops.i feel like the matches couldve been better if they werent so worried about losing their bikini tops. true roman female athletes wore breast binders, not flimsy spandex eye patches.

the kemp twins are ridiculously good looking & i can never tell them apart.i guess this is the one that was on  eastenders? too many stupid speeches & not enough of toms phat cheeks! i can see why this got cancelled......

Sunday, February 14, 2021

♥ "my" elvis, trauma p0rn, + happy valentines day! ♥

 so i accidentally stumbled upon all the old emails from my ex rockstar boyfriend "elvis". i didnt even remember we emailed for years after he dumped me for having cancer. that whole time period was so traumatic that i dont remember a lot of it.

back then, i assumed i was pregnant & it turned out to be cancer. i named the tumor after the baby i thought i would be having(Norma Jean).i forgot all about that.....

he "loved" me because i was the only one to tell him the truth & he hated me because i was the only one to tell him the truth. i identify with anne boleyn so strongly. it hurts reading these emails, him saying he missed me(mind you this was after he dumped me & he never once tried to see me again, yet for years kept begging for my new phone numbers. plural). i am not strong enough to read them all, just seeing bits & pieces hurts so bad. finding these old love letters plus the whole marilyn manson abuse stuff is making me feel some sort of way(yes, ive known for years how bad mm was/is, no there is no excuse for what he did & will continue to do).

i am sad & drained & i still love elvis. its hard knowing the only person you ever loved dumped you for having cancer. i am still stuck in that same place & i wish i could get over him


many millions of years ago while traveling through nevada, me & an ex boyfriend went to an outlet mall in the middle of nowhere. it was gigantic & pretty much empty. i wasnt interested in any of the stores so i left him to wander the 2nd floor. no one was there & there was nothing on that floor except for an antique car in a huge plastic box with a bench in front of it.

i got closer & the car was so full of bullet holes you could see right through it. then it hit me, it was the car bonnie & clyde died in. it was one of the most depressing things ive ever seen in my life. i sat down on that bench & cried for bonnie parker, another bored texas girl iso something to do.