the rockstar who rapes

i was auditioning an old white male to be my husband. he was about 60 & very rich, i will call him lou. we were talking & he says, "oh i see you know the rockstar ashley?" & i say yes. lou asks "you know ashley is a rapist?" & i say "yes, everybody knows ashley rapes & yes i believe his victims".

lou says, "i left ashley alone with my ex girlfriend & he raped her". i said that was horrible. now at this point a normal person wouldve changed the subject but, of course, lou had to explain to me in great detail what happened to his ex. i change the subject. lou changes it back to the rape. 

every

single

time

i can tell he's getting worked up & i'm getting the feeling that he left her alone in his mansion with ashley on purpose. when the "conversation" is over, i block lou. the worst part is that this is normal. i always warn women not to talk about past abuse because males will never be empathetic, it will just be something else for him to masturbate to. men dont care. if men cared, rape would not still be a thing.

"debby"

 

i went to a party & ran into my agent with his new client, an older white actress i will call debby. debby had been in most of my favorite childhood films & i was excited to meet her. i did nothing offensive & as soon as our agent walked away she decided to be as racist & as rude as possible.

a year goes by & i hear that debbys savings were stolen by scammers & she was almost homeless. the best part was that i knew those scammers. they were very hot gay men who stole from women/men who wanted to be their sugarmamas. debby had always been unattractive & usually played the ugly friend. she was at least old enough to be their grandma but in typical white woman fashion she thought these young gay males actually wanted her. if i had been her friend, i couldve warned her against hanging out with the scammers but she thought being racist was more important than making a new friend that day..........

asos marketplace is run by morons

 so i had a store in the asos marketplace YEARS ago.i ended up not posting any products & years later when i logged in, my store was gone, & they asked for me to apply again.

ok

fine

cool

i jump through the hoops, email them pictures i took, then they emailed me saying my application was rejected because i "stole someone elses pictures". i reply saying that was a lie & i get no reply back. 2 weeks later, i send an email to someone else & get this in return

"Hello,

 

We use reverse image searching to check the authenticity of the imagery provided. We do not allow imagery that is not owned or taken directly by the boutique or product creator to be on site.

 

After reviewing the imagery we found the imagery provided on multiple other websites

 

We will not be replying to any further emails regarding this matter, thank you"

what were those other websites i "stole" my photos from? my etsy & my other online stores(pretty sure i emailed them the link to my etsy in the 1st email so that makes this even more dumb). of course, they couldnt just read the profile in the store to know it was me(or even ask me like a human being). its bizarre to me how people who are SO STUPID are in charge of things

"allies"

 

“If you are silent about your pain, they’ll kill you and say you enjoyed it.” Zora Neale Hurston

a "well meaning" white woman told me i should stop talking about racism today because i might start to lose money. lmfao! as if me being born a black woman didnt make me lose money/opportunities my entire life. it's 2021 & white people STILL DONT GET IT. you can afford to sit back with your head in the sand pretending like everything is ok. absolutely nothing going on is affecting you negatively.

your life is not my life. i literally cannot even walk to the store without others trying to hate crime me yet i'm supposed to be silent of all these things done against me.

instead of using her privilege to be an ally, she basically told me to sit down & smile. i am not a coward, i have NEVER been a coward. my ancestors didnt have a voice so i have to speak for them. if that offends you then that will continue to be your problem..........

♥ "my" elvis, trauma p0rn, + happy valentines day! ♥

 so i accidentally stumbled upon all the old emails from my ex rockstar boyfriend "elvis". i didnt even remember we emailed for years after he dumped me for having cancer. that whole time period was so traumatic that i dont remember a lot of it.

back then, i assumed i was pregnant & it turned out to be cancer. i named the tumor after the baby i thought i would be having(Norma Jean).i forgot all about that.....

he "loved" me because i was the only one to tell him the truth & he hated me because i was the only one to tell him the truth. i identify with anne boleyn so strongly. it hurts reading these emails, him saying he missed me(mind you this was after he dumped me & he never once tried to see me again, yet for years kept begging for my new phone numbers. plural). i am not strong enough to read them all, just seeing bits & pieces hurts so bad. finding these old love letters plus the whole marilyn manson {alleged} abuse stuff is making me feel some sort of way(yes, ive known for years how {allegedly} bad mm was/is, no there is no excuse for what he {allegedly} did & will {allegedly} continue to do).

i am sad & drained & i still love elvis. its hard knowing the only person you ever loved dumped you for having cancer. i am still stuck in that same place & i wish i could get over him

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many millions of years ago while traveling through nevada, me & an ex boyfriend went to an outlet mall in the middle of nowhere. it was gigantic & pretty much empty. i wasnt interested in any of the stores so i left him to wander the 2nd floor. no one was there & there was nothing on that floor except for an antique car in a huge plastic box with a bench in front of it.

i got closer & the car was so full of bullet holes you could see right through it. then it hit me, it was the car bonnie & clyde died in. it was one of the most depressing things ive ever seen in my life. i sat down on that bench & cried for bonnie parker, another bored texas girl iso something to do.

blind item: that biracial singer with low self esteem

something about this "singer" always rubbed me the wrong way. biracials raised by white moms always turn out worse than ones raised by a black mom but it was more than that.this "singer" is VERY sexual, always half naked, showing off her unattractive shape. turns out she used to (still is?) doing free cam shows for men (inserting cucumbers in various orifices, scat shows, vomiting, etc) & enjoys it when white men call her the n-word. she got plastic surgery on multiple body parts because these men she was doing free sex shows were insulting her looks. after the surgeries they continued to call her ugly (while she continued camming).in her spare time, she was a member of a racist, anti black chatroom.

the men she entertained online are now trying to blackmail her with the p0rn she posted. she isnt drunk when she is live on her official pages, she is high off hard drugs.i cant say that i feel sorry for her

lmfao

despite being in way too many reality shows,i've lived a drama free life.i dont fuck with losers so when i found out my "friend" was teaming up with my "enemy", all i could do was laugh. now that the shit has hit the fan,i cant even be surprised. its like the fable of the scorpion & the frog. why pretend you didnt know she was a shitty person? anyways, back to my scheduled programming........

Lindsay Lohan is still trash

its pretty obvious Lindsay Lohan was abused as a child & her parents dgaf about her well being.for someone who was so rich & famous she had a rough life but that is no excuse. if she were black she wouldve been cancelled the 1st time she was caught with drugs but since she is white she will continue to fail upwards & get MANY opportunities to work in the entertainment industry(even though she was never talented & looks 20 years older than her real age).

to promote her new reality show, she decided to insult victims of abuse(as if she wasnt one herself).

hohan on abuse & sexual harassment: "You make it a real thing by making it a police report. I’m going to really hate myself for saying this, but I think by women speaking against these things, it makes them look weak" thats bizarre. pretty sure she never contacted the cops after she said her last fiance Egor beat her.

"You have these girls who come out, who don’t even know who they are, who do it for the attention". hmmmmmmmmmm, sounds familiar

“I had a fight with my ex on this very beach. What did I do? Nothing”.i guess she just called herself an attention seeking weakling

donkey of the day: me

i'm at this boring party filled with black rappers and white women with horrible plastic surgery.i find a comfortable place to sit in the mansion and take it all in.

there is this cute guy with TERRIBLE hair that looks vaguely familiar.he gives me the eye. i assume he is a rapper as well,maybe that rae guy? so now i'm reading that article about lena dunham & find out the cutie with bad hair was Odell Beckham jr. i can be such a spaz at times