the rockstar who rapes

i was auditioning an old white male to be my husband. he was about 60 & very rich, i will call him lou. we were talking & he says, "oh i see you know the rockstar ashley?" & i say yes. lou asks "you know ashley is a rapist?" & i say "yes, everybody knows ashley rapes & yes i believe his victims".

lou says, "i left ashley alone with my ex girlfriend & he raped her". i said that was horrible. now at this point a normal person wouldve changed the subject but, of course, lou had to explain to me in great detail what happened to his ex. i change the subject. lou changes it back to the rape. 

every

single

time

i can tell he's getting worked up & i'm getting the feeling that he left her alone in his mansion with ashley on purpose. when the "conversation" is over, i block lou. the worst part is that this is normal. i always warn women not to talk about past abuse because males will never be empathetic, it will just be something else for him to masturbate to. men dont care. if men cared, rape would not still be a thing.

various musings from the former muse

 

i was so excited when i heard that i had been cast in the last movie i worked on. that was a while ago & i still have not seen that movie. it seems like a lot of my life is like that, i get excited then absolutely nothing happens.

my favorite holiday is halloween/my birthday but i havent celebrated it in years. maybe this year? probably not but dreams are free.

i always forget i have "fans" & that i was on tv & thats why strangers think they know me.

6 degrees of separation is so real here in hollywood. so many former friends who are connected & they dont see but i see.i am the missing puzzle piece that brings it all together & only i know where the bodies are buried.

i stopped having dreams years ago when i started taking sleeping pills. my dreams have come back recently but its only the same dream over & over. i am dead,i have died, but no one knows,not even me. i get up & work, i eat, my schedule is the same but i am dead. im sure a therapist would have a lot to say about that

a complete stranger came up to me & said he liked that i was natural & didnt have plastic surgery. natural is a word that i would NEVER use to describe myself so that was weird & unsettling.....

reddit is racist like the rest of the world

 

i'm minding my own business as per usual & i see this comment

Staafen2

·45 min. ago

Ewwww you're black lmao. These 

bums already have more worth

 than you

ok. i report it & get this message a couple of minutes later

"Thanks for submitting a report to the Reddit admin team. After investigating, we’ve found that the reported content doesn’t violate Reddit’s Content Policy."

now if i had said people with penises dont need to be in female only spaces or women have periods, i wouldve been banned but its perfectly ok to say bums have more worth than black people. i'm not surprised, its just weird how EVERYBODY is ok with being as racist/sexist as possible & we just have to pretend its normal.

house of gucci

i wasnt going to review house of gucci but i keep laughing & i know this isnt a comedy. i am not even going to comment on her terrible accent & the fact that lady gagas face is so full of fillers that it looks like a halloween mask. how did no one notice this???? why did no one tell her to stop????? her face looks like it hurts!

this "romance" is so awkward. in what world does gaga look like liz taylor? he must be high AND blind. she wrote on his windshield with lipstick, then put the lipstick on her mouth & i damn near vomited. this movie is nsfl & it hasnt even been 15 minutes. its like all the actors are in a different movie. i really hope people werent serious about gaga winning an oscar for this.

im confused why they cast people who obviously cant do an italian accent instead of just letting them use their own accents. were they trying to do camp on purpose? adam driver looks like a snack in 1970s clothes,he should keep this style. the office sex scene is worse than the pool one in showgirls. why are amateurs being paid millions when they cant do the job? i havent seen a star is born(there is only one & it stars fredric march) but did lady gaga really not take acting lessons after fvcking up american horror story? i could understand if she was attractive(or relevant) but this has got to stop.

of course,they HAD to make jared leto, bald/old/ugly/fat instead of just hiring a bald/old/ugly/fat actor because absolutely nothing makes sense in this movie. i dont appreciate how they are treating my mans paolo. he has the best male costumes. the fake karl lagerfeld had choupette 30+ years before she was born. did i miss the scene where karl goes back in time? also pretty sure he had dark hair in 1983 but wgaf about accuracy or the truth? 

ridley scott also directed "the last duel" which came out around the same time as this & i wonder "for why?" neither film was very good & this will probably be the last movie he directs. why waste ruining your legacy on this?

blind item: the "model" & the fashion designer

 

so this "model" is more known for the rappers she has sex with & the female fashion designer was VERY popular at studio 54. the fashion designer married a gay guy but it turns out it was a lavender marriage both ways. she would fly out the self proclaimed thot for bdsm parties & basically made the "model" into her kinky sex slave. 

an olive branch

i didnt read this novel but you can.¯\_(ツ)_/¯ . i didnt care then & i dont care now. y'all can stop with the fake apologies, now

Re: An apology and extending an olive branch. Hi Dallas, I hope you're doing well. This is Lacey from Rock of Love. I'm probably the last person you want to hear from, but I want to take a moment to apologize to you, and extend an olive branch. I'm going to send this, and then write more to you...

As I said, I first would like to start out by giving you an apology. I know that I annoyed the crap out of you on the shows, and at times, really made you upset and angry. I want to take this moment to say "I'm sorry" to you, and to accept responsibility for any pain I have caused you. That was never my intention. I always thought you were, and are, a strong, confident, and "bad ass" woman. When I was on the Vh1 shows, I was very much intentionally playing the "villain" character, with encouragement from the producers. I knew it would get me far in the game (on both shows), and I knew it would make for funny, entertaining television. The reason I chose people like you and Jes to give "a hard time" to, was because I knew that each of you were strong women who could handle it, and could handle me. I knew you were tough and confident, and I knew that of the two of us, I was going to come across as the "bad guy".

Your name has come up quite a few times on the podcast, and I will let you know that nothing bad was ever said about you. If anything, I describe you as being "an incredible adversary" to me. You were such an iconic character, and an integral part of those shows! Not only do I think that, but the fans are well aware of it, too. Fans of the Vh1 shows and fans of the podcast keep asking over and over, "When's Dallas coming on?" You are really important to a LOT of people.... maybe more than you even know.(?)

I was hoping, at the very least, I can talk to you over the phone, so that I can give you a proper apology, (apologizing over text is cheap). I also want to listen to what you have to say to me with an open mind. My hope is that maybe enough time has passed and that maybe you and I can mend this, and hopefully be on friendly terms... or at least be cordial.

The energy and vibe of the podcast is very different from that on Rock of Love. On the podcast, it is all about positivity. If you have your doubts, then I invite you to ask Sam, Brandi M, and Big John about their experiences on the podcast. It is important to me that everyone comes across in the best light possible, because I feel that it is a direct reflection on me, and on the podcast. The fans of the podcast are incredibly kind as well, to all of my guests. My guests are welcome to promote any projects, charities, products, etc, that they may be working on, and each episode of the podcast averages over 10,000 views.

I would love to have you on, as a guest, if you would be open to it. But first, at the very least, I am hoping you will allow me to call you on the phone, so that I can listen to anything that you have to say to me, and apologize for hurting or angering you. I do think you're a good woman. I mean that. I don't reach out like this, to people who I don't respect, and I do have respect for you.

Thanks so much for reading this. I appreciate your time.

I wish you all the best, Lacey Sculls

Jul 15, 2020, 7:32 PM

I hope you see this.

eta: to all the racists in my inbox How the concept of forgiveness is used to gaslight women. you can also replace the word women with "black people" & it still works.i was going to write a separate post about that but most racists are too dumb to even understand it

to set the record straight

this will probably be the last time i bring this up. i've been getting a LOT of emails from randoms asking me to be on a certain podcast. that will never happen. now that the podcast has changed,i got an email from my "friend" asking me to be on it. that will never happen. to me, friends are people who are there for you not just when they need something.

so y'all can stop bothering me. its not going to happen. ever. find a new hobby to occupy your time

eta: the "enemy" just sent me a friend request. this is pathetic

blind item: that kinky movie star guy

this "happily" married patrician movie star "respects her too much" to ask his uptight white wife for bdsm but goes online for his kinks. he catfishes with fake pix on tinder to try out his knots on random black women.i guess his wife stopped going to the sex clubs with him for threesomes & now he's playing alone........

i'm not talking about christian grey(& unfortunately i'm not the one he had sex with............)

i heard they separated because she caught him with a kinky escort(not because he was cheating but because the escort is black).plus she hated he is pro black lives matter. its about to get real messy

eta: i heard something new about the ex wife. she was bullying a black schoolmate & told the teachers that the black girl had stolen something from her that cost less than $1. the teachers searched her locker, then strip searched the girl. turns out the item was in the ex wifes pocket the entire time. sounds about white.......

Valley Girl 2020

who tf was asking for a musical remake of valley girl? nic cage is damn near perfect in the original & idk who this new guy is but i doubt he can fill those shoes. he has hair like the dude from nickelback & is dressed like its 2004, nowhere near punk, new wave, or 1980s so i'm already skeptical.

do we really need it framed that she's telling this story to her daughter? who cares about this annoying child? lets get to the sangin' & dancin'! ive always found alicia silverstone to be annoying when not playing cher so hopefully her scenes are very short. all of this reminds me that i STILL havent seen rock of ages. idk why but most post 1960s musicals are just so bad to me, like everybody stopped caring about writing good songs for them once musicals stopped being popular.hairspray is one of my favorite movies yet the remake was just ok(i forgot i even saw it, it was so bland).

mandy moore did the choreography. what tf does mandy moore know about dancing? has she ever danced? how did i miss that? was i in the bathroom? why is tptb trying to make logan paul a thing? i feel like i'm going to be asking a lot of questions for this movie.

i get why they added a fat white girl to the preppy group but i doubt that wouldve really happened in the 1980s. fat people then were (at best) the punchline, not in the popular cliques. i dont understand why they set it in the 80s yet nobodys hair/makeup/outfits are 80s. wearing a normal dress & then putting on ankle socks doesnt make it 1980s. you can tell they spent a lot of money but its annoying(like 1950s movies set in other periods but the costumes scream out "1950s trends").

white mediocrity strikes again! logan paul has a face like a foot but he was cast as the hot popular guy. they go to a costume party & this is the only time they are in actual 1980s style clothing. :-(

they used all the original footage of them cruising down hollywood & it doesnt match the new film at all,the film stock/colors are different & the people are actually wearing 1980s clothes.i was wondering how they would handle that since the sunset strip looks so much different now.stuff like that only works if you are filming in black & white & the wardrobe people know what they are doing.

all these actors are so charisma free and bland.the singing is good enough, the dancing is ok, but its like a disney channel type movie. re-watching the original, i was shocked at all the nudity & grittiness(did i forget or was i watching an edited for tv version as a child?).

this is where i sleep,then go buy four lokos. now i am drunk enough to watch this mess.

a small lol when randy starts playing "crazy for you" & a random extra boos.i know those feels, random extra. this is the only time that ive laughed watching this movie so it also made me :-(. plus its slightly gross knowing the annoying daughter is the same girl leo has been grooming since a child to fvck. anyhoo.

they use a LOT of modern slang, absolutely no white person in the 1980s was saying "its all good" or chill.they really shouldve just made this a "modern" movie with a different title because this isnt even the plot of the original. its like this movie is never going to end. 1 more hour :-(

were teenage girls in the 1980s still lusting after shaun cassidy? i dont think so. of course theres a sandy-like scene where she turns punk instead of him getting into her hobbies/interests.........

how old is randy supposed to be? he is living alone, has no job, & doesnt go to school but is dating a teenage girl.........

it looks like her dads fake mustache is going to fall off at any moment & randy has late 1990s gavin rossdale hair.i feel like whoever made this movie really hates us.i'm so drunk my head is starting to hurt & its still almost an hour before this ends...........

i like how everybody is getting crunk to the safety dance. we need to bring that back.

i took a 4 hour break. 40 more minutes to go............

the prom scene is dumb, doesnt make any sense, & does not include "johnny are you queer?". i would be pissed if i wrote "i melt with you" & a stupid movie character took credit for it. i hope they paid that band well.i have very few regrets in life but seeing this movie is one of them..........

blind item: that biracial singer with low self esteem

something about this "singer" always rubbed me the wrong way. biracials raised by white moms always turn out worse than ones raised by a black mom but it was more than that.this "singer" is VERY sexual, always half naked, showing off her unattractive shape. turns out she used to (still is?) doing free cam shows for men (inserting cucumbers in various orifices, scat shows, vomiting, etc) & enjoys it when white men call her the n-word. she got plastic surgery on multiple body parts because these men she was doing free sex shows were insulting her looks. after the surgeries they continued to call her ugly (while she continued camming).in her spare time, she was a member of a racist, anti black chatroom.

the men she entertained online are now trying to blackmail her with the p0rn she posted. she isnt drunk when she is live on her official pages, she is high off hard drugs.i cant say that i feel sorry for her

angel angel down we go or cult of the damned

i always get a kick out of 1960s "groovy" movies that were made by people who obviously didnt understand the counterculture but wanted to make money off of it anyway. the plot never makes sense, there is always a weird scene where everybody gets high & has an orgy, & the dialog is cringy. angel angel down we go is one of those movies.

this one is a little different because the main character is an obese rich girl. every scene involves either her or someone else saying she is fat. meanwhile she is a size 10 or 12 which today would make her "skinny". her only problem is a sh!tty attitude & an ugly face, not her size.

she falls in love with a $1 store clone of jim morrison who runs a cult, the lamest cult in the world. in the middle of the sex scene he kisses her then moves her head away.

mim jorrison: "wow your breath stinks, your breath stinks!!!!"
fat girl: "oh please"
mim jorrison: "no i dig it,i dig it!!!!"

every time i see that scene i die a little inside. is this supposed to be romantic? what kind of psycho would do that & what kind of psycho would allow that? he lays on top of her naked without moving while she makes an orgasm face for 3 minutes.his cult shows up & they sing a song about fat acceptance while she frugs(why is this movie not more popular?). i'm waiting for jennifer jones to show up again & class up the place. pretty sure i reviewed this movie already but its my blog & i will do what i want! :-)

next morning she wakes up, he pimp slaps her & says she is going to fly his plane.of course she has never flown a plane but she does it perfectly while the band/cult sky dives. this is anarchy? hippies were sky diving? ok, sure. you would really HAVE to be high to enjoy this movie.

lmfao

despite being in way too many reality shows,i've lived a drama free life.i dont fuck with losers so when i found out my "friend" was teaming up with my "enemy", all i could do was laugh. now that the shit has hit the fan,i cant even be surprised. its like the fable of the scorpion & the frog. why pretend you didnt know she was a shitty person? anyways, back to my scheduled programming........

Bumble Presents:The Stella Heartois Experience - V2

oy

i'm SLIGHTLY drunk so this might be painful to read

anyhoo

this was one of the worst parties i've been to for a while

invite says party starts at 7pm & to get there early.7:20 & we are still standing out front. "celebrities" are being let in while we stand there watching.i am literally the most famous person there, which is sad.

i read all the emails sent before because i'm a nerd.when i got there they were taking reservations for the dinner. cool. whatever. we give our names to the hostess around 7:30,the 1st seating is at 8:15(supposedly).we are standing by the hostess the entire time.they let in randoms,asking us to move over. 8:15 goes by, 8:35, 8:45, we are told the next seating will be in an hour unless we are investors or scheduled online(that is one of the MANY lies we were told by pr women/hostesses because there was no way to schedule that online but whatever).we are not investors so we wait standing in line.they continue to let in randoms around us(who i know & are definitely NOT investors).we still wait patiently.a security guard says we cant wait in line 2 minutes after the hostess says we need to wait in line because their list/wifi is down. he makes sure everybody moves out of the line. ok

eventually everybody pushes towards the dinner area. we are butts to nuts. i'm sweating & wearing chanel but its fine,i'm a survivor.i came there with a full stomach but its the principal at this point.i was told the year before meghan trainor had a concert but no such luck this year.just bs & lies for 2020.they hand out half cooked cold sliders(why are white people SO obsessed with raw meat?????).i ate it despite being disgusted,i hate to waste food.it was a valentines party but most of the hot guys were gay & with their boyfriends(i ended up dancing with most of them later at the gay bar on the other side of town).we finally push our way inside the dinner area when the hostesses are distracted(i have no idea what time but definitely later than the 9:30 we were promised multiple times). to be fair, the actual dinner food was one of the best meals ive ever had even though it was supposed to be shared(im guessing they ran out of food by that time. the "shared salad" was literally 3 pieces of lettuce & "shared ribs" were 2 small cubes of meat.i left before dessert so i have no idea how tiny that was).my alarm was set for 10:50pm which is when i left for the gay club(dont ask).

olivia culpo was supposed to be there.she is not important enough to be googling but im guessing she is the white woman who was there for 3 minutes & wore that white dress that BARELY covered her ass. if so, good job? she literally did nothing but im sure she was paid handsomely for the "effort". anyways, i need to sleep for frieze tomorrow.

tsa is completely useless

so i go on vacation & the absolute worst part of any trip is going through tsa. its like they try to be as disrespectful/dehumanizing as possible. every single time, they stop me to touch my hair no matter how i style it.i have never heard of a black female terrorist but that doesnt stop them from wasting time making sure i feel uncomfortable.

i usually carry pepper spray & brass knuckles because i've seen first hand how the public gets off on black women being hurt(& not helping afterwards).in this life, i have to save myself. the plan is, i put the weapons in my checked baggage & go on the plane with a small purse.

i wake up super early with very little sleep & head to the airport.the tsa line is incredibly slow & its taking a long time for my purse to go through the scanner. finally i get it back & am on my way. later on i look through my suitcase & start to freak out because i couldnt find my keys/weapons. turns out they were in my purse the entire time.i was on the plane with pepper spray & brass knuckles(which is prohibited by the tsa).

seeing how easy it was for me to do that by accident makes me wonder what else is being smuggled on purpose.my purse was small & half empty, either they saw my weapons & let me go through anyway or worse, they didnt see. i'm sure if i had brought an unopened bottle of water they wouldve made me throw it away but actual weapons was ok. tsa is just theater to make stupid people feel better

"poc solidarity": asian edition

so i was talking to an american born asian man who grew up in los angeles.he told me that he couldnt understand how trump was elected plus arguing racism was nonexistent in the north until trump.

let that sink in

usually i hear only white people telling that lie so it took me a while to recover from the shock.i told him that as a minority the fact that we are surrounded by racists* should not be new news. of course he defended them(dont all buffer races?) & that made me sad/tired. its 2019 & i really should not have to explain white supremacy at this point.

* a little detour while i elaborate on the part in pink before the #notallwhites start emailing me: if you uphold white supremacy in any way, you are a racist. the end.

anyway so i calmly explained how in the south people would call me a n!gger to my face & in the north they would wait for me to leave the room.i told him about how in ww2 californians decided to put their american born japanese neighbors in concentration camps(of course, he had no idea that happened).funny enough texas has a HUGE population of germans yet i'm 99% sure there was no american concentration camp for them. he had no reply to that & its fine.i really do need less stupid people in my life.

the dinner date

so i meet this attractive,older millionaire & we decide to go to spago for our first date.i put on a cute & modest high neck $50 dress & make sure my hair/makeup looks nice.not over the top but definitely appropriate for the occasion.

during our date 4 people came up to compliment me on my beautiful dress,one woman saying that i looked like a vintage movie star.i can see my date is getting pissed. he complains that everyone is complimenting me but not him(he's wearing a t-shirt & jeans, nothing fancy).i tell him he should've warned me that HE wanted to be the pretty one."i can ugly myself up so you can shine, you just have to let me know in advance!". afterwards he gets upset because my boobs are "too big" & "stick out too much".never in my life have a heard a man complain about breasts being too big. how sway?

i tried to contact him later but he basically blew me off.oh well.i guess i'll be single until i die if this is the best men can do..........

the scandal siblings

this heaux scandal with the siblings is about to get REAL messy.you thought it was just a title but it was a way of life for those girls. pre "fame" they were hookers & ended up stabbing a single father before stealing $15,000 from him(to pay for all that plastic surgery). they even thought it was a good idea to hold his child for hostage to get even more money out of him.

that time dallas almost had sex with an incel

so i meet this guy & he is GORGEOUS,one of the most attractive men i've ever seen in my life, could easily be a male model.my first thought after seeing him was "i hope i dont mess this up before we have sex".


literally

we talk & i'm trying to get to know him.the first thing out of his mouth:
"i'm a virgin"
me: "are you kidding?"
incel:"no. will you have sex with me?"
me: :-(

i tried to explain to him how sex was not the most important thing in the world,how only talking/thinking about sex would turn off the majority of women(who did not want to be treated like objects).i suggested he go to a prostitute since it was obvious he wasnt looking for companionship or love & just trying to "get rid" of his virginity.he was upset. how dare i use logic & reasoning instead of just allowing this complete stranger to pump & dump! i asked him what his therapist thought & he basically just repeated the advice i'd told him.he said he'd been going to therapy for years but it wasnt helping.of course he blocked me soon after. i wouldnt be surprised to hear he'd shot up a church or kidnapped a woman.

i'm sure he blames his virginity on others

transgender "artists" made weapons to kill feminists

now i'm pretty tired & about to watch the latest episode of plebs but riddle me this: why do transwomen hate women more than they do the men who rape/kill them? images: source

no matter how many layers of makeup are used, i can still see the testosterone. funny how that works.hating what you are so desperate to become.it would be funny if it were not so sad. how does killing women get rights for transpeople? are women in charge now? why is wanting female only spaces for people with vaginas such a bad thing? the entitlement is so incredible.

this is what we are dealing with.a man wearing a shirt saying he wants to punch women. this "art"(which was paid for & posted by the public library) was made by a group of men who are upset that lesbians refuse to have sex with them. really. i wish i were joking. since this hatred is only focused towards women it will not be taken seriously. tptb will say "boys will be boys" & it will be swept under the rug until it affects straight white men.ok,i am officially done for today,time to watch mr ryan sampson

blind item: the thots killed the other thot

so none of these people are really famous,i just thought the story was interesting.this blonde instagram "model" was 30 but looked 45 due to bad genetics & even worse plastic surgery.she hung out with some bottom feeders: a casting director/pimp who worked for a used to be huge pron magazine, & her 2 fellow "models"/prostitutes with equally bad plastic surgery.

the casting director would never hire me for his paid or non nude projects but made sure to call me when he had unpaid work.i swiftly blocked him.she died after they had broken up but magically turned into his fiance postmortem,this "millionaire" who loved her so much yet had to beg for money to bury her. he kept posting all this RIP stuff about the model on his website with her lingerie pix(i guess she had no decent pictures to post) & when friends would ask how she died he was completely silent.here's what happened.

the 2 other "models" decided that it was hilarious to watch the blonde getting high & egged her on to do more drugs.her low self esteem said it was a good idea & she had an overdose in that infamous mansion/brothel. they took her home so that the owners would not get in trouble, put her in bed, then called the authorities after the drugs were out of their systems. of course the other "models" didnt contribute to the funeral nor did they attend but posted lots of RIP stuff & lingerie pix to their websites as well.

i heard that the actual (pregnant at the time but got an abortion later)girlfriend of the casting director was with the "models" telling the blonde that she needed more drugs/alcohol.funny enough i was at a party where he made the blonde play 2nd fiddle to the new gf.i remember the vibe being VERY weird but i had no idea what was going on. there was a LOT of horrific plastic surgery, rich unattractive men over 50, & young women wearing shirts as dresses.