boys will be boys or #ripamie

 

every time i open tinder i see his profile first so i know he's already swiped right on me. gareth is technically good looking but not my type.his eyes are dark & blank like a shark.i keep swiping left on him,i can do better. after about a year i am bored & decide to give him a chance. i swipe right. we talk. he is trying VERY hard to be quirky & fun & its like talking to a robot pretending to be human. our conversation tapers out when he begins to stalk his ex girlfriend again. she contacts the cops & despite her having multiple restraining orders against him, they ignore her. boys will be boys. he tries to woo me online, then the next day gareth pursehouse throws amie harwick off a balcony & kills her.

i am sharing this story because women are always told to ignore our intuition, lower our standards, & give these "good guys" a chance. i wish i could say this was the only time a man who killed a woman he claimed to love then tried to date me but this isnt even my most interesting story. 

Bumble Presents:The Stella Heartois Experience - V2

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i'm SLIGHTLY drunk so this might be painful to read

anyhoo

this was one of the worst parties i've been to for a while

invite says party starts at 7pm & to get there early.7:20 & we are still standing out front. "celebrities" are being let in while we stand there watching.i am literally the most famous person there, which is sad.

i read all the emails sent before because i'm a nerd.when i got there they were taking reservations for the dinner. cool. whatever. we give our names to the hostess around 7:30,the 1st seating is at 8:15(supposedly).we are standing by the hostess the entire time.they let in randoms,asking us to move over. 8:15 goes by, 8:35, 8:45, we are told the next seating will be in an hour unless we are investors or scheduled online(that is one of the MANY lies we were told by pr women/hostesses because there was no way to schedule that online but whatever).we are not investors so we wait standing in line.they continue to let in randoms around us(who i know & are definitely NOT investors).we still wait patiently.a security guard says we cant wait in line 2 minutes after the hostess says we need to wait in line because their list/wifi is down. he makes sure everybody moves out of the line. ok

eventually everybody pushes towards the dinner area. we are butts to nuts. i'm sweating & wearing chanel but its fine,i'm a survivor.i came there with a full stomach but its the principal at this point.i was told the year before meghan trainor had a concert but no such luck this year.just bs & lies for 2020.they hand out half cooked cold sliders(why are white people SO obsessed with raw meat?????).i ate it despite being disgusted,i hate to waste food.it was a valentines party but most of the hot guys were gay & with their boyfriends(i ended up dancing with most of them later at the gay bar on the other side of town).we finally push our way inside the dinner area when the hostesses are distracted(i have no idea what time but definitely later than the 9:30 we were promised multiple times). to be fair, the actual dinner food was one of the best meals ive ever had even though it was supposed to be shared(im guessing they ran out of food by that time. the "shared salad" was literally 3 pieces of lettuce & "shared ribs" were 2 small cubes of meat.i left before dessert so i have no idea how tiny that was).my alarm was set for 10:50pm which is when i left for the gay club(dont ask).

olivia culpo was supposed to be there.she is not important enough to be googling but im guessing she is the white woman who was there for 3 minutes & wore that white dress that BARELY covered her ass. if so, good job? she literally did nothing but im sure she was paid handsomely for the "effort". anyways, i need to sleep for frieze tomorrow.

ashamed to swirl

I've dated MANY middle aged(& older) white men & their stories are all the same. they fell in love with a black woman in their youth but was too ashamed to date her in the open. they married a white woman, stayed married for at least 20 years, then once they realized interracial dating wasn't that taboo anymore, got a divorce(or had an affair then got a divorce) so that they could "bang" EVERY black woman they saw.

i'm talking to this 70 year old millionaire(don't judge,lol) & he's all "black women are so exotic blahblahblah". I say i'm psychic & know why he's now dating black women. i tell the story & he says no, i have it all wrong.

me:"so your ex wife is black?"
him:"no"
me: "so your children are black?"
him: "no. my ex wife & kids are white"

he proved my point so then he decides to use the old & boring angry black woman stereotype because i MUST be jaded from being used & abused by men. everything coming out of my mouth HAS to be attitude not truth. how could I know what i'm even talking about, it's only my life experiences, right? i'm just so worn down by this. everyone wants to fawk me but no one wants to respect me. i don't want to go all sojourner truth but "aint I a woman?". why does everything have to be a struggle?

when I hear of white women getting so many messages they fill the entire inbox I just have to laugh. really? but i'm supposed to be grateful for the racist crumbs I get. since i'm rambling i'll also add that for every 300 messages I get from white men 1 will be from black men. yes, one. if I were actually trying to date black men I would be furious.

I got another email from a  very handsome male model type, so I check his profile to see that he's checked every race but black in the mate preferences section. because of course. this happens the majority of the time when men email me. am i SO gorgeous that men are willing to date a negress or are men still SO ashamed of others knowing they want to date black women? I know the answer & it's sad in 2015 black women are still considered "less than". I see we'll have another generation of men marrying white women to cheat with black women 20 years later.

stupid guys

I am on a dating website & one section says to name your favorite movies/books/tv shows.i HATE it when men send dumb emails saying only "hey" or "ur cute" so I fill that section out completely & put on top "this is a long list of my favorites". with that info, there is no excuse for lame/boring emails or reasons why he didn't know what to talk about.

I get an email from a man this morning that only says "ur profile is as long as the bible". :-(

maybe that was his way of flirting, maybe he was trying to be funny, or maybe it was a neg. either way I emailed him "wow, you really know how to turn a woman off" then I blocked him. you'd think he'd want to know more about a woman before he asked her out/spent money on her/got her pregnant but I guess not, huh?